Papoosh etc - Marriage, Motherhood, Mayhem and Musings!

A life wasted in looking for what is just beyond reach......tragedy being it is always just beyond reach. A tanatalising flame that dances just enough within frame of vision to seem attainable, but the close one moves to it, the more it eludes....and all that is left is a soul squeezed dry.

They say true love is unconditional, they also say to truly love is to not expect anything in return, and that to love completely is to let go, let the other free. Are none of us then ever party to a love that's true? To a love that is all encompassing? The love of a parent is said to be the purest of all, the most unconditional. But it too has it's own conditions. Aren't the rules laid down to us to follow from the time comprehension first makes an appearance on the scene, conditions in some ways? Love us, their children, they will. We are after all their flesh, their blood, culmination at times of a love that they hope will last, at others, we still are miniature 'thems'. Tiny pieces of them that we carry around just by being alive. And if love that pure, that untainted is still not devoid of expectations, of rules, of conditions, what hope do we have ever of loving or being loved, in the eyes of the world, ideally? Questions, questions and more questions that wil

I look back on a year that went by in a flash. For some reason, this year seems to have gone by much faster than any other in recent years(that's about as far as my memory helps) :P I have much to be thankful for, thankfully hardly any regrets, and been a good year overall. Am wondering if next year'll be the same. Maybe not. Hoping it'll not be too bad either. This year brought so much into my life...I got out of a not so great job at just the right time, before it started going to pieces, got one far better than I could have imagined to snag. Colleagues with whom I don't really have to watch my back, whom I can trust for the most part. Have grown as a person, hopefully, am better as a daughter, as a sister, as a friend. Have been able to sift the real people, the one's who'll stand by me, from the vast number of casual acquaintances I'd met along the way. It's been a lot of new beginnings, and few hitches along the way. A new house, which'll hopefu