Papoosh etc - Marriage, Motherhood, Mayhem and Musings!

If someone asked me to describe the year gone by in one word, I would probably die trying. Describing anything in one word, as you would have guessed by now, isn't really my forte :)..but even then, this one would have left me completely stumped. 2007...it was a year of new beginnings, it brought with it a completely different world, promises of a tomorrow that I had been dreaming of for a long long time. It came, arms laden with extended family for me, it came laden with lessons to be learnt, it came disguised in sweetness I thought would be enough to carry me through another year. It is a year I wish I could go back and freeze in March, it is a year I wish I could erase July,August and September from. It is a year where the first half went by in a rush, where the second seems to drag on and on and on. It has been the year of breaking old moulds. It has been a year of reaching out, a year of being overwhelmed by the love I am surrounded by..the love of friends, the love of family.

As I'm sitting here contemplating on the state of affairs (literally) in my life, soft, pleasing to the ear music in the background, I find myself typing..letting thoughts flow freely. There's just been way too much that has happened over the past week for me to ingest, for my recently uneventful life to handle. How does one know that they've moved on? Does it mean to be able to look a once loved deeply person in the eye and not feel even a momentary pang of longing? Does it mean to be able to spend time with them and not think of how intimately one has known every part of them, every gesture of theirs, every tone of their voice? Or does it mean assimilating all of this and more, making all this , all of them a part of who we become, carrying remnants of them with us for the rest of our lives? How often does a Ross and Rachel kind of situation happen? Is it possible to just know...just because..that you're never going to be over...that whatever comes along in life is on

Hi...you're still here? Wow....and here I thought you must have been sighing in relief, thanking the one above for finally answering your prayers, rejoicing in my "hopefully for good" disappearance. No? You really missed me? No wonder there was this weird feeling in and around my heart..it could have been an overdose of beans as well..but..why ruin it? I think it was all your fervent wishes for me to come back and enlighten your lives with the latest in mine..no? I thought as much :) Anyway, life has been quite the rollercoaster. So close to the end of the year, my system was becoming a little restless..what with no annual vacation on the horizon. Annual vacation here means my annual quota of hospitalisation. For some reason, when the story of my life was written, it was decided that I would never ever fall seriously ill, never suffer from any major life threatening kind of sickness. But, at the same time, it was an absolute necessity that I fall sick regularly, with stup